Happy Birthday Mom!

                    

Dear Mom,

Today is your birthday! Woo hoo! I know you are up there celebrating because that's what you do! Your birthday was always your favorite day of the year. Any excuse to celebrate and have fun was your thing! And don't worry, everyone remembers...even though you aren't here to remind us all every five seconds like you used to LOL

I know that you know how I feel about you. We were always good about that, sharing our feelings, never letting any moment go by without telling each other how much we loved each other. But I wanted to say thank you, again, for everything that you have given me.

I am who I am because of you. Your kindness, your compassion, your open heart, your love of life...all of these beautiful qualities, I owe to you. You taught me to always follow my heart. To be afraid but do it anyway. To face adversity with strength and grace. To have faith in the journey. And to love with everything I have in me. Thank you for that.

You were my confidante, and my biggest cheerleader. You listened and never judged. Everyday, I wish I could chat with you over a cup of tea about what's going on in my life. I want your advice. I want your hugs. I want to hear you laugh.

I will never stop missing you. I will never get over losing you. I have learned how to live with it but the deep aching pain in my heart will never leave me. You are gone. There's a hole where you used to be that nothing can ever replace.

But I also want you to know that I am so grateful and very happy! Having you as my Mom, even though it was cut way too short, was the BEST gift I have ever been given! I am so lucky to have been able to have you in my life, to teach me, to guide me and to love me.

So birthday girl...in your honor, I will kick off my shoes, crank up the tunes, and dance with wild abandon....and then I will eat chocolate!

Happy Birthday beautiful angel!